decision

as always, I am very confused.. i cant manage my life, is very difficult for me do make a decision. I am scare to make a bad choice, so I don't know how to make this step to passed. I don't wanted to fall down again, its hurt, I don't want to be hurt again. why me? why always me? problems at school, after school ends, family problems begins. I will not ask the perfect family, a millionaire parents, I just wanted them to give me love. I am also a human being, I need a love of my family and friends. But why is so difficult to understand me? no one will understand me until the day I die.
My brothers acts like they are very proud, I hate them. before marry, they just care about their friends, after marry, they just care about their wife. I have more problems with my old brother, is a stingy guy, have the same attitude like his wife. The day I saw his real face, I have make a final choice, I will not consider him as my brother. He wanted to act, I will act with him. I feel as a clown in my house. As he told me, that I don't need to tell everything, I have to hide inside my hearth, I will do it. I don't know, but the only things I ma very sure, is that I wanted to get out from this house, I don't wanted to see their face anymore.

VACATION

vacations are so bored.. everyday working and working. I considered myself as a lazy girl, since I woke up at 10.00 A.M. Today I go out to do the test of driving, I passed the visual test, the audience test, but I didn't passed the teory test, so sad. It missed the teory and practice test. I don't know, I lost the faith to do the test again. I lost the hope to take my license. my brothers don't want me to have license, but I will showed them that I can do by myself legally, with all my effort I will passed, no matter how many times, but I will do it.
Well, On Monday I will go again to do the test, hope I can passed. I believed that I PASSED.

choosing a career

It just missed one year more, I will finished high school and still i don't know what to study. I think that I will choose fashion designer, but how to become a designer when i don't even know how to draw. I was trying to draw as I have in my mind the style that I will like to make a dress, but I cant draw. So, I think I need to look for another options.
The year that I spend in Canada, I thought that I will study as a designer in a college. But since everything change, I still don't know what to study. I feel like I am a failure girl. How is possible that at this moment , I still don't know what to study.
So sad, but the most important for me is to went to another country, too meet new people and to forget the past. But something will never forget, this is friendship, I will never forget all the friends from here, in Panama.
In this 2 months of vacation, I will take English class to improved my English. Of course that I will no spend my 2 months of vacation just for the curse. I will learned how to drive and to take out my license

^&*^ My Birthday^*&^ AUGUST 17

On august 15 i was planning to go out on my birthday! so at august 16 i began to call people to go out. Many people told me they cant went out and i understood that they have a lot of homework, me too, i have a lot of homework too, i was thinking even stayed at home to finished my homework and study. why always in my birthday?, teachers put a lot of homework. why? i feel very bad, even i knowed the reason of why people cant went out to celebrate the party with me, i still fell bad. The most important is all my best friends cant go, that's make me feel very sad, Ririana it supposed my best friend and she don't even trait to go out to celebrate with me, i remembered when it was her birthday, it was Saturday, i knowed i cant go out, but i was discuting with my parents to let me go out, because it was her birthday and i trait my best to give happiness to her. others things make me feel bad, on august 17 i was doing my homework, suddenly i call Ririana, to ask somethings about geography project, she dont even said happy birthday or something like that. then i call again, and i ask if she will go out? and she said no, she don't even told me before, she cant call me to say that she cant go? omg its ok. i think she don't even remembered my birthday or maybe she think that my birthday was on august 18. FINE. when i fall down, i don't even want to go out, there was Ricardo and Enrique helping me, they help me with the geography project, the reason of why i don't want to go out is because no one of my friends can go, but i told them that i have a lot of homework. i Will never forget this day, make me know that true friendship are not forever, because in the future maybe you will forget this special friends, i almost think that best friends can help me when i need, wake me up when i fall down, but that's not true. nowadays, from our age, for me friends exist just from school, ask for help about homework, project and nothing more. Because they wont understand me when i feel bad, they don't even care, so its fine for me, i don't care too. all of my suppose best friends: katy, Ririana, Karen and others cant go out on my birthday. But there was friends that go out: eli, one of my best friend, Lily, Ricardo, Yap, Enrique, Ana, celebrate with me. another thing i don't liked is that one of my best friend "Katy" she cant went out, but she say not it just because she don't want to go out, that's hurt, its OK. i think this is not a good day to go out. do you know why? first, me went to BOLOS, there is full of people, when Ricardo and me went to Amador there is raining, Then we went to DORADO, to BOLOS, there was doing a party, and i was asking why i went out? i can spend this time to finished my homework and studying. i wanted to cry, but i didn't do it because i will make them feel bad, so i stayed like that. After all, it just Enrique stayed there with me, we were talking and talking. after all my brother call me and i came back to my house, then i began to do my homework's......

The Last Class

Today will be our last class, i am going miss the teachers a lot. i cant believe, time pass so quickly. i wanted to stay ere in Canada, it was a nice trip. I will never forget all moments that i have in Canada. At the morning, we have a drama, the drama invented by us, we spend pur time creatin the drama with a lot of effort. Our drama finished, it was great, the teachers liked very much that even someeachers are going to cry. Well, today we have a party, we go to "Medieval Time"; at the beginning, we are taking picture in group, then we enter to wash medieval movies. Our group are "The Red Group" we are laughing and shouting, Ririana ans me are so excited. Then its dinner time, we began to ate, after al, its over, Teachers began to give us our diploma of graduection for taying one month in Canada. I receive a extra diploma "The most improved" i cant believed, i improved my english in this trip. Then, i also recive a gift to be the best actors in my drama called "unbreakable bonds", a drama about friendship. At the end we came back to the residence, we all the group have a meetoing in Maggy's rom, Maggy gave us a gift for memories and a hug to all the group. It was the last day we are going together with Maggy, she take care a lot people around her. She was very nice to everyone. Its bed time! most of our group slept together in Abishek room's the girls slept in the bed and the boys in the floor. i slept at 3.00am.

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